There are plenty of jobs available in this world, even in the U.S whose economy is not doing so well currently. Companies make all sort of effort to make a less glamorous job appear more appealing. Human resource personnel seem to have believed that a nicer sounding title will make up for that lousy paycheck and lack of appreciation. It’s the easiest to implement solution that has been taught and widely used by the HR practitioners.
This rings especially true for mundane, repetitive work.
Sadly the thrill of having a nice sounding job title typed in Arial 12 in your resume only goes so far to fill that hole in your soul.
When asked what is the most disappointing thing about my job, I wrote down satisfaction and appreciation.
Years of selling out to a stable job and salary have finally taken toll and I officially declared my soul numbed and quite possibly I am but a shell of a person left.
A few months back, as I faced impending retrenchment (the threat of which still looms like a black cloud above my head). I approached the threat first by panicking, second by checking if I have enough money to tide me over and for how long. Eventually I arrived at the third stage which was figuring out what I was going to do next.
I have to say I am still stuck at this stage(been probably stuck at this question for the past 20 years). Although my job is currently going to remained safe, the thought that I might get retrenched and that I would no longer be required to go into the office and be another unappreciated , under-utilized employee with no career advancement actually lifted my spirits. I attempted one or two interviews before I realized that I would just be placing myself back in a environment where 80 percent of the time I am not fully using my skills, am numb and feel utterly colorless.
This brought me back to the same question which I was not able to find an answer to all these years and the inability to answer the question held me prisoner to society’s (and my parents’) idea of how I should earn my living.
What SHOULD I do?
A job which I love or A job which I do what I am best at.
Figuring out what I am passionate about is another conundrum. Figuring out what I do best is worst, fire sirens sound at the smoke coming out of my head.
Let’s be honest , I am mediocre.
And as Albert Camus once said “Idleness is fatal only to the mediocre.”
Working without any interest or passion for your work results in the idleness of the brain and it has indeed proven lethal for my soul.
But can one who is mediocre metamorphose into something else?
To be continued….
- Only Proactive People Can Genuinely Love Others, Reactive People Can’t (updated) (realtruelove.wordpress.com)
- Retrenching redundancy (iamtheperfectboyfriend.wordpress.com)